thus to burn as the passionate headlong will plunge
for i have known of roses sweeter than a fire of spices
that cast me adrift in a thousand dreams
where i lost myself down a river of feathers
so nude were your lips, so deep was the wondering in your eyes
lost in a forest of whispers, of breathing
the stars behind your gaze sought me to enter
within your leaves did springtime begin her calling
the blooms everywhere are far away
as we are the only ones inside this eternal yes
hovering before the door of forgetting the sound of our alone
time spilling moments of red, like kisses 12:01am comments?
Been real busy. Doing California, of course, but there’s iTaxi and now I’ve done some work for SmartNet, which is the company Mike and our friend Joe have to pay their bills. And as of now, I have not heard back yet from Learning Tree about the written tests, but they have been known to be slow on the draw. Other than that, wondering what I should do to prepare for the imminent meeting with money on the 7th. And been going out again, last time the hottest chick was one of the waitresses, and I was hitting on her the whole time. But I’m sure she’s used to it. And there we go. Hi ho. 12:01am comments?
Christians have often been their own worst enemy in the way that they have invented problems for themselves that need not have arisen, not only causing themselves a good deal of anxiety but also deterring otherwise interested parties from looking into the truth further... Even today Christians are doing battle with the scientific establishment on behalf of what they call creationism as if the Christian faith depended on it. Surely it does not. The Bible does not date the creation of the human race, nor does it describe the methods employed in its formation. Whether it took millions of years or only a [few] is not part of Christian essentials. It only makes it harder for a person to consider the gospel seriously when such a concept is made a prerequisite to faith.
I’m starting to feel the gears move beneath me. After a bit of a lull, things are happening now, great hope is in the air. Firstly, I have my first honest to goodness face-to-face meeting with someone at Deutsche Bank on September 7. It’s at 9am, so I’ll have to resist the temptation to stay up all night the night before, and just try to get some early shuteye instead. I dunno, maybe nothing will come of it all, but I have a better chance, I think, of scoring something there than winning at the lottery. We shall see what we shall see. Que sera sera, and all that. Sounded like a decent fellow, the guy who called me back Monday morning. Let’s try not to get too nervous about it.
Talked to a new friend about the AI and stuff, and he came to the conclusion that what I really needed was to be able to talk to other smart people about it. As it stands, I have never explained more or less the whole thing to anyone else, and that would be interesting if I could actually do that. In other news, California is finding more work for me to do, so I can still pay the bills, and the Learning Tree hiring process continues on. Add to that that I have proceeds from that coin I sold, and I’m doing alright right now, getting by. I’d just like to be at a place where I’m doing more than just getting by. I have plans to be real good to my parents for instance. But y’know.
As far as the AI, I think I might have a rather complete model of the general reasoning process utilized (formally) by human beings. Like incorporating scientific method to test things, to reason with the various types of logic, to utilize context, how to deal with uncertainty (that I just figured out, in a greater sense than I had thought previously on the matter). The day’s coming up where I’m going to do a writeup of all of it. Still have to work out some of the details for now. But wow, I look at it and it seems so obvious when I’ve figured it out, inevitable even. But it sure isn’t like that when it seems like you’re groping around in the dark for something sharp. Ow.
As every pilgrim in the spiritual life knows, it is hard to hold the unseen in our mental and spiritual grasp. Visions of eternal truth, crystal-clear at the time, have a disconcerting way of fading from our memory. But here I may reassure myself. Here I know that Christ Himself, taking pity on our blindness, and understanding our limitations, is allowing the seen and the unseen, the material and the spiritual, to coincide. Here, by His appointment, I can receive and absorb things that are physical and know that they are really things which are spiritual. It is no mere piece of bread or sip of wine that I receive — I receive the very Body and Blood of Christ into my own imperfect self.
So things are happening right now. I’m in the process of interviewing for the job at Learning Tree. They finally contacted me. However, it’s not for anything related to artificial intelligence, and the pay is considerably lower than I had been told it was. Whatever, I’ll still go for it, I think. Right now, I’m trying to think what I’m going to do when I’ve finished the work for California, because I’m almost done it. Learning Tree won’t be paying me for almost two months from now. Other than that, still going on iTaxi, and a direct competitor has gone to market before us, with the exact same idea. Other than that, I’m still trying to start on the implementation of the new idea I had for the AI. So I guess things are moving, just not everything in the way I’d like them to go. But that’s life, right? What fun would it be if things always went like you wanted? 12:01am comments?
Random NYC: Baptist Church Doors
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August 7, 2012
I hear tell of a flower
that blooms in total darkness:
if light is ever shown on it,
it immediately turns to dust.
Though how it may be I have
heard but rumors, I am told of
some rare few who say they
have seen what that flower
may be. Palest white petals
that seem to be suspended
in air, so gossamer is its stalk.
These folk who claim to view
the invisible, this unique
flower: people whisper they
were born and lived in blackness
deeper than night: better to
view the mysteries of life, of
flowers only darkness may see. 12:01am comments?
I’m going to have to start writing up a new AI theory, to replace the old one on the right navigation, here on this site. I have a much better, more specific idea of how it should work these days. And I have a more or less concrete idea of how a satisfaction of a pattern is also a pattern, what I have always called the “greater” premise. (The lesser is pretty much the transitive property.) I also have started updating the copy on my company website, and am experimenting with embedded fonts on it. Fun fun fun, n’est-ce pas? Like I don’t have enough going on.
So, as far as things are going, the AI has been my main focus of late. I have the idea that anyone with any money has not the wherewithal to understand what exactly the potential for it is. I think that is my main stumbling block, why my phone has not been ringing off the hook with the pitch book and business plan I’ve written (I know I date myself with that metaphor, correct?). So the plan is to get working a “wow” demo, that I will release into the wild (via Slashdot, Reddit, etc.). And then when some “buzz” builds around it, then try and get money then. Always thinking.
Nothing else really popping, well, a little with iTaxi, and I’m still working for Access doing Android stuff. But frickin’ Learning Tree is being slow as molasses getting around to talking to me about the AI teaching gig. Yeah, they still tell me that it hasn’t slipped through the cracks, but sheesh. I guess I must simply work on my patience. And as far as anything else, none of the dating sites I’ve joined have gotten me one date yet. Not like I’m totally ignoring them right now, but I am a little disillusioned by them. Other than these... I guess that’s it. Life’s good, though.