I might be a little behind, but I really can’t complain. Last week I went through two cycles of euphoric mania and utter despair, staying up till 6am one of those nights trying to figure out something that couldn’t be figured out. Then Saturday night I blew my own mind in more implications of the Theoretica, if you remember that. And finally, after all this time, on Tuesday, January 26, I believe I finally figured out enough that I had a vision of it ALL: the whole thing, how all the pieces fit together and WORKED. It was another rest of the day just high on that grand vista that had appeared in my mind’s eye. I could now start writing that paper I always imagined I’d write, describing it all. Yeah, baby. Yeah.
Another reason I’m rather chilled out these days is that I decided that whatever I get done, I’m going to get myself a day job. So I’ll probably be boning up on my C# and Java next week, along with sprucing up the old resume. I might not have to go far to get paid, it would seem, because my roommate just became president of his company, and he needs to clean up the mess the last guy left behind. Funny story: he had me talk to the top IT guy on Sunday, and I found out that they are totally lacking in technical infrastructure. The next day, he mentioned that he’d like me to write a little something describing my recommendations. I took about a half hour and chugged out some ideas, and the roommate was so impressed he told me to invoice his company for 2 hours worth of work. Not bad.
As far as things go, the only thing bad (apart from not having a girlfriend, which I’m pretty used to by now) would be that I just don’t get out enough. The only place I ever go is one of the big bookstores where there’s a cafe so I can get coffee and work among the books. My friend Karla and another friend said they’ll be coming for a weekend at the end of February and drag me out of the apartment to some museums. I’ve also been talking (rather hypothetically) with my friend Dough in Korea and seeing what I’d like to do as far as greater travel is concerned. Dunno now, now that I’m almost assuredly going to have a day job again, when I could get away. But who knows what the future brings? Not I, even if I pretend to, sometimes.
Jesus once declared that God is "kind toward the unthankful and evil" (St. Luke 6:35), and I remember preaching a sermon on this text to a horrified and even astonished congregation who simply refused to believe (so I gathered afterwards) in this astounding liberality of God. That God should be in a state of constant fury with the wicked seemed to them only right and proper, but that God should be kind towards those who were defying or disobeying His laws seemed to them a monstrous injustice. Yet I was but quoting the Son of God Himself, and I only comment here that the terrifying risks that God takes are part of His Nature. We do not need to explain or modify His unremitting love towards mankind.
The Philosophy Aisle
My view when I sit in the local bookstore to think/work.
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January 21, 2010
a thin thread leading from a river’s source down into the grand sea
light that traces the remains of the day, trickling down its length
is this what has come of the dreaming? is this the serendipity?
for time mayhap cracks, to leak into the now that is forever
in adamantine letters scrawled into the stone, such logic 12:01am comments?
Had it happen that on Thursday January 14, when I woke up from a very good sleep, the work I had laid out for myself for the day solved itself as if before my very eyes. I don’t know what to do with these kind of phenomena. Right now, things are going so well that I cannot help but be suspicious. I had the idea that either things will all fit together exquisitely, or the fall of this house will be cataclysmic. That it seems more and more like the former makes me expect the latter in the back of my mind, and probably will until when I have gotten the whole thing to work. Or I crash and burn. But I am not really worried, for the alternative is not so very bad, after all. Que sera sera. Life goes on. 12:01am comments?
The fool for Christ holds a prophetic role in Christianity, from the early church to Russian Orthodox "pilgrims" and such later fools as Luther, Kierkegaard, and Dostoevsky, who were seekers after the true, the good, the holy, the beautiful. They were insane — not in a clinical sense, but in the madness of the Holy, an insanity which ordinary sanity refuses to admit.
I am working on the implementation plan for this release, which I call version 4.2. Mainly because I never really finished version 4, so I can’t in good conscience raise it a whole number. I have the theory worked out to the point where I can work with it, that crazy idea. A pattern that forms itself, or something to that effect. There are several axioms that I’m utilizing, from my observation of how things are expressed, at least in English, and I’m utilizing the Theoretica, version 2, which I have posted here previously. Next week is implementation, and the week after that is debugging, in anticipation of an end-of-month drop dead deadline. Wish me luck.
As of this writing, I have seen Avatar 3 times, twice in IMAX 3D (the only way to watch it), and once because I downloaded a bootleg copy off Bittorrent. I figure I paid enough to warrant my own copy, and I plan on buying the DVD anyway. Also, the movie has subtitles in Russian, so I have to remember what the blue people said those times when they speak in Na’vi. But I really wanted to see it again and didn’t feel like waiting in line for a third time for 2 hours. And I must say, even flat and small, still quite enjoyable. Probably a kind of halo effect working, too, since I enjoyed it so much in huge 3D. Plus, I also have a Jake Sully avatar action figure, a poster of Neytiri, and several magazines and books. Yeah, I really liked it.
And so here we are in the second decade of the twenty-first century, and like the song said, nothing changes on New Year’s Day. Wondering right now if I should sell any more of my gold coins. There are a couple that are not that important to me right now; though gold is not spiking quite as much as it did on my last sale. That was kismet, so well timed to be snapped up at the last record gold price. I guess I’ll check on eBay to see the coins I’m thinking of and see if they’re fetching anything close to exorbitant prices. The issue of money is definitely starting to rear its ugly head, as well as the issue of health care. That runs out (from the last full time gig I had) at the end of May. But who knows? Maybe this will all work out. It has been known to.
In which I have a good feeling about... just about everything. 12:01am comments?
I’m still working on that crazy idea. Or at least, what the idea leads to. In my vision of things, what the thing should do is be able to read any text, comprehend what it can (relate it to what it knows in logical form), and save what it doesn’t understand to be figured out later. As more information comes in, it can make sense of what has then been saved. If a query comes along, if the logical forms cover its objective, an answer is formulated; if not, then the system should augment and disambiguate, usually by asking a question of the user. Until a covering span for the query assembles. And now, as I write this, I am unsure I will be able to get this done by the end of the month. Whereupon it is drop dead time for me to find some sort of income. But I will press on, since I am one to believe that miracles happen. Cheerio. 12:01am comments?
The Theoretica, Version 2
Straight from the notebook.
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January 2, 2010
the land of nowhere is a lazy dream
coming or going, you must pay with your existence
though dreams float right through
within, the primordial chaos, a souplike scattering
and time for once seems vulnerable 12:01am comments?